Jayden's Journal
Prayer for an Earth Bound Angel, Jayden Man
Little Jayden how sound you sleep
While the angels watch and pray you safe to keep.
Mom and Dad with so much pride
kneeling in prayer by your bed side.
Mr. John is busy gathering folks from across the land to come and listen to a
Jazz for Jayden Band.
Uncle Joe steps in to keep your journal a flow, when mom and dad with you had
to go.
Angel Moma Bear , logs it all down so it will always be around.
Kate and Carye come for Angels and all our love do they take.
The sheriff and his posse all gave a day so your dad could love you and mommy
close and not miss his pay.
Family and friends to many to count giving love to your family in an awesome
amount.
Doctors and nurses with God's gift to heal
making sure they take care of you by His will.
Mom and Dad put a
message on your truck so others by disease will not be struck.
One day soon little man you will get well and be able to once again play.
Until then we who love you will continue to pray.
Written by Frankie Milley, for Jayden with love
Jayden, August 1, 2004 |
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Jayden,
August 2, 2004
Hello all,
Today was a much better day. Jayden looked
more like himself with his beautiful smiles. He ate some bits of his
meals today. He had physical therapy and did pretty well considering
he's been laying down most of the week. He had his PCM meeting today and
they think he'll be here another 3 to 4 weeks and than we will need to
work an outpatient schedule.
He had an x-ray of his stomach done to check
things out. Everything looked fine, except for a lot of gas. He hasn't
really eaten in over week, so that doesn't come as a shock.
Tomorrow his neurosurgeon will be contacted and
he'll decide if he wants to see Jayden back at Columbia to check
everything out. Even though he has had a good day, we still want to know
why he has been ill and won't let up 'til we get some answers.
We were able to see some of the concert on DVD
today. Thanks to all who helped put it all together. We're sorry we
missed it.
Love and blessings to all,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 3, 2004
Good evening,
Today was a better day. Even though we must realize
everyday is a great day, and are very thankful for each day. Jayden got back
into his routine again. His eating is getting better, we should be back on
track in a couple of days. He is still on the IV, getting it at night only
now to keep him hydrated, until he starts drinking more liquids. Something
is still slightly bothering him, but he his getting back on track. And most
important we are seeing more and more of his beautiful smiles and laughs.
His physical therapist (girlfriend) Laura took it easy on him today to get
him back into the swing of things, but tomorrow she will get right back into
the tough stuff, standing, riding the tricycle, and walking with assistance
which Jay was trying to do today when Laura stood him up. We are seeing that
Jayden is becoming frustrated about things, which is a good sign in a way.
It means he is more aware and wants to do things and can't figure out why he
can't, or why we don't understand him. But he is trying again and we are
thrilled. We are moving up the mountain on our journey again. Another
obstacle almost behind us. We will take on whatever comes our way, because
we have a great team, Jenny, Jayden & myself. And of course with all of your
prayer and support there is nothing we cannot overcome. It was nice today to
be back into our daily routine of therapies, getting out of this room and
seeing all of Jay's therapist and all the great people here at Children's
Specialized Hospital. We also had a very nice visit from Nelson Morales from
the Passaic County Sheriff's Dept and another Officer from the Mahwah Police
Dept. who heard of Jayden's story and gave us a very generous donation from
their PBA. We thank all my brothers & sisters at the Mahwah PD. Everyday
Jenny, Jayden & I are so deeply touched by so many beautiful people who do
so much, from beautiful emails, letters, Mass cards, phone calls, donations,
visits, support & prayer in so many ways I can't even begin to tell you, or
even begin to thank you. People are beautiful! Believe me when I say that.
We cannot wait till we begin to go home and start getting out with Jayden so
he can begin to meet all of the beautiful people who have touched his life.
And we can begin to thank you all! Thank you for your continued prayer &
support. You all have really made a difference! Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 4, 2004
Jayden did great today. He seems like he's feeling
better. He had a great breakfast and lunch. He seemed tired by dinner time.
He had a full day of therapy, with an hour of physical therapy. He rode the
tricycle better than ever. He was pedaling and steering. He was much more
himself, with some wonderful smiles. The IV has been taken out, so it's up
to us to continue his liquid intake. Hopefully, we will continue on this
path. We hope to be able to spend some quality time at home with him this
weekend. Please continue to pray.
Love and blessings to all,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 5, 2004
Hello all,
I need a favor from somebody from the Sheriff's
Dept. I need a ticket book because Jayden was speeding through the hallways
on the tricycle today! Well ok not really speeding, but he sure was pedling
along at a good pace for a short time. He was giving it his all, he is still
working on his steering a few innocent pedestrians were struck along the
way. A small price to pay for glory! Jayden had a really good day today, he
ate very well, is beginning to use his right hand again, and is really
focused on things again. He is once again trying to talk, we are hearing
many sounds again. When Jay hears music he taps both of his feet, he is
moving his right side so much more now. Jenny & I can see the twinkle is
back in his eyes again and he is giving it 110%. This has certainly lifted
our spirits again. It was a difficult 2 weeks we just endured, but we always
had faith Jayden would come through this just as he always does. Nothing can
stop him! Super Jayden my hero! Thank you all again for your continued
prayer and support. Good night and God bless! Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
Check out photos from the concert at
http://jazzforjayden.com/photos.html
Thanx again to Dave Morrish & band, John, Katherine, Sharee, Martha, Pat
Murray, PCSD Mounted and everyone who helped and supported the event. Thank
you Ariel for the beautiful song. Thank you to uncle Joe, you did well under
pressure. Thank you to all. Thank you thank you thank you thank you
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Jayden,
August 6, 2004
Jayden did fantastic today. He was walking,
assisted, or should I say jogging. He was on a roll today. It was probably
the best walking he's done yet. He'll probably be able to try a walker at
this rate. He was able to go back into the pool. He did great. He really
enjoyed it. He ate well for all his meals and has started to drink his
health shakes again as well as the ensure puddings. We will be taking him
home tomorrow for the day, god-willing.
Have a great night.
Love and blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 7, 2004
Hello all,
A super Saturday at home! We just had a great day
spending some quality time together. Jay really enjoyed playing with some of
his toys, he actually seemed focused and playing with them. We cannot wait
to get back home tomorrow for the day again. He is once again trying to
speak, he is making more and more sounds. Have a great weekend. Happy
birthday to mom! (Andy's) Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 8, 2004
We had a fantastic day at home. It's so hard to
bring him back to the hospital. Jayden smiled practically all day. He's
ready to come home. I've never felt it stronger than now. Andy agrees. He'll
have the best therapy at home, lots of love, good food, and kisses. Of
course, we'll follow through on the harder stuff they do here in therapy, as
well.
Hope you all had a great weekend. We had the best!
Love and blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 9, 2004
Howdy yall,
We are climbing that mountain at a very good pace
again, making great strides on our journey. Jayden is back on track and
doing a super job. He was riding the tricycle at a fast pace today, and
loving it. He did some great assisted walking. He was using his right hand
today so much. He was actually passing objects from one hand to the other.
He is focusing on toys and beginning to play with them with meaning, and not
just throwing them. He is trying to speak so much, more and more sounds
every hour. It will hopefully all come together soon. Jayden's attitude has
been amazing since going home on Saturday & Sunday for the days. He is just
non stop smiles and giggles, he is so happy and enjoying close contact, like
kissing, and cuddling, and hugging. I just held Jay today for the longest
time as he hugged me and rubbed my back. It has been over 4 months since I
have had one of those super hugs. It was a great day! Jenny & I are thrilled
with the progress we are making again. The miracle workers here at
Children's Hospital are once again pushing Jayden to get him back. And he is
giving 110% It is really awesome to watch! Thank you all once again, for it
is because of all your support & prayers we have made it this far and will
continue up this mountain. Thank you! We cannot wait to see what miracles we
will see tomorrow. Good night & God bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 10, 2004
Jayden had a great day. It was very busy with bike
riding, walking, playing, and the pool. He did great. He's been looking more
and more like himself. We just want to keep moving forward.
Please add Jena into your prayers. We met her and
her wonderful family here and she needs surgery. She is a very special
little girl and we absolutely love her parents.
Love and blessings to all,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 11, 2004
Hello all,
A good day here. Jayden was acting a little
different today, but we guess in a good way. He was on the quiet side and
not getting frustrated, he was very mellow but very focused on things and
even following some directions when he was asked to do things. This may be
leading into another phase of recovery. We still have some issues with Jay
such as he gets little bouts of loss of balance that last a second or so and
Jayden falls forward. Jenny & I spoke with the Dr. who feels this will pass
within 3 to 6 months as the shunt does its job. We will have to be more
aware of these as Jay begins to walk because they can cause him to fall.
Other wise Jayden seems very happy and full of smiles. He is really back on
track and doing a super job! I would like to thank Matt Lukesh for the
awesome tattoo I got last night. It is Jayden's name written in veins, which
represents that with every beat of my heart Jayden flows through me. Thanks
to Matt & his mom for all her support, Billy Monroe and everyone at Screamin
Ink Tattoo
http://www.screaminink.com/ for
your support. I'll be back for more! Thank you to everyone everywhere for
all your amazing support. It still unbelievable how everyday we receive such
incredible support from so many beautiful people. Jenny, Jayden & myself
would not of made it this far without all of your continued prayer &
support! Thank you! Good night and God bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Super
Jayden
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Jayden,
August 12, 2004
Well, we have a tentative date given to us for
Jayden's discharge, Sept. 1st. if he shows major improvement though, they'll
want to keep him longer. we'll see.
he's doing fantastic. he's so happy and smiley. we
can't wait to take him home this weekend.
he's been much more focused on objects and on what
he's doing. we're so proud of him. he rode his bike even better today than
ever. he was a speed demon. he amazes us everyday.
all the best to you all.
love & blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 13, 2004
Good evening all,
Another good day. Jayden is continuing to ride the
tricycle with more strength every day. He is trying very hard to walk, he is
taking good weight to his feet and working on getting the stepping down. Jay
did some super standing in the pool, pushing himself up and holding himself
up. He some new sounds out of his mouth today. All the pieces of the puzzle
are there, Jayden is trying very hard to put them together. But Jenny & I
know that with Jay's determination, the assistance of the great therapist,
the support and prayers from you all, and mom & dads help, we have faith he
will get it all together soon. His brain has to work it all out, and when
Jay is ready it will happen. We are looking forward to this weekend to take
Jay home for the day on Saturday & Sunday. We know how much improvement we
see in Jayden when he goes home. it defiantly triggers something within him.
Hope you all enjoy your weekend. Good night & God bless. Love Andy, Jenny &
Jayden
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Jayden,
August 14, 2004
What a great weekend! It was so nice just to be
home for the day on Saturday & Sunday. Jayden is so happy when is just
laying in his own bed. We are looking forward to going home September 1st.
Jenny & I know it will be a lot of hard work and adjusting, but being home
is going to be the best therapy for Jay. It is just so comfortable for the
three of us just to be together in our home, there really is no place like
home ( I say that clicking my heels, red pumps actually) It seems Jayden has
entered another phase of recovery, he is very mellow and concentrated,
taking it all in. Very little bothers him now. But every now and then he
really just says things, that seem to make sense to him, he is so close to
talking. We are not sure when it will happen, but it will happen!. We cannot
wait to get back into therapies tomorrow and see what miracles Jayden will
perform this week. So stay tuned! Thank you all for your continued prayer &
support. Never forget how big a part of this journey you all are! Thank you.
Good night & God bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 15, 2004
Jayden is looking great. he's doing well with
his therapies. he kept Andy up last night with lots of sounds. Andy
thought he was going to speak. he's so close. he was also very active
in bed, flipping his legs over the bars. he is something else. I feel
he'll speak soon. can't wait to hear his cute little voice, with his
funny comments.
have a great night. thanks for the prayers.
keep them coming.
love & blessings,
Andy, jenny, and Jayden
Jayden is forever tattooed on all of our hearts, Frankie |
Jayden,
August 16, 2004
This journey definitely does not have a smooth road. Jayden is doing well, but he is suffering from a little falling forward imbalance thing he has had. They started out very small, and very few. Now he is having them very frequently, sometimes minutes apart and they have become a hazard for Jay. He falls forward with such force and his arms and legs flail. He has hit his face on things, and affecting his attempts at walking. The doctors are unsure what it is and at first were not concerned, they said it would pass. But now it has become a problem, there will some tests done over the next few days, and a meeting with a specialist. They could be a form of seizures, or muscle twitches, or just something simple that will hopefully pass. But we will stand strong over the next few days until we have some sort of answer. Mentally & physically Jenny & I are both drained, but we continue to show noting but strength and love in front of Jayden, and let him know we are here and it will be OK. he had a tough day even with the imbalances he did some good assisted walking and tricycle riding. He did not smile much or look to good today, but just when Jen & I were at our ends Jayden perked up and began to smile and giggle for us, and he has been in a great mood since. He knows when to cheer us up too, we are a pretty great team! Well I'm just going to crawl in bed next to Jay now and watch Monsters Inc. Good night & God bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden |
Jayden,
August 17, 2004
Good evening all,
We had a good day today, Jay started out kind of
sluggish and zoned out but as the day went on he perked up and did good. He
was fitted for plastic casts for his ankles today, they will assist Jay with
keeping his ankles supported while he is trying to learn to walk again. We
should have them in about 2 weeks. Jayden still had his falling forward
episodes today. Jenny & I are looking forward to hopefully finding out
something with the tests tomorrow. The episodes seem to be bothering Jayden
now, and upsetting Jen & I. Jayden still continues onward though, the true
champion that he is. We are so proud of him with all he has been through and
continues to endure, he is still full of beautiful smiles and giggles. And
just looking into his eyes reassures us that everything is going to alright.
Please pray for us tomorrow as we go for another test to find out what is
going on. And please pray for all those in need of prayer. Thank you so much
for your continued prayer and support. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 18, 2004
Well, Jayden has been scheduled for an EEG on
Friday. God-willing the EEG will not show any seizure activity. It could
possibly be related to fluid build-up in his inner ear. Either way, we will
have every avenue checked out and get some answers, hopefully.
We were able to take Jayden out to dinner with us.
He really enjoyed being out.
We hope we will be going home in 2 weeks. So far,
the date is still Sept. 2nd.
Please pray that Jayden's EEG goes well and that we
find out what's causing these imbalances.
Love & blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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Jayden,
August 19, 2004
Good evening all,
We had a good day today, Jay started out kind
of sluggish and zoned out but as the day went on he perked up and did
good. He was fitted for plastic casts for his ankles today, they will
assist Jay with keeping his ankles supported while he is trying to learn
to walk again. We should have them in about 2 weeks. Jayden still had
his falling forward episodes today. Jenny & I are looking forward to
hopefully finding out something with the tests tomorrow. The episodes
seem to be bothering Jayden now, and upsetting Jen & I. Jayden still
continues onward though, the true champion that he is. We are so proud
of him with all he has been through and continues to endure, he is still
full of beautiful smiles and giggles. And just looking into his eyes
reinsures us that everything is going to alright. Please pray for us
tomorrow as we go for another test to find out what is going on. And
please pray for all those in need of prayer. Thank you so much for your
continued prayer and support. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 20, 2004
Jayden had his EEG today and it showed
myoclonic seizures. This is the definition of it:
Myoclonic (MY-o-KLON-ik) seizures are brief,
shock-like jerks of a muscle or a group of muscles. "Myo" means muscle
and "clonus" (KLOH-nus) means rapidly alternating contraction and
relaxation, jerking or twitching, of a muscle.
So, his Dr. has upped his phenobarb to 75mg
from 60mg and added .5mg of Clonazepam (3 times a day). It's takes
about 24 hours to see a difference. The Dr. says that this is not
uncommon, especially with scar tissue on the effected area. He is
still healing and he can out grow this. This is not necessarily a
life-long problem. We pray it goes away and never comes back. Dr. Y
says he'll need to be on seizure meds for 1, possibly 2 years. If he
remains seizure-free after that, then he's in good shape.
So, although we are disappointed, we have an
explanation and can work towards helping him. Besides that, Jayden was
in great spirits, smiling, laughing, and trying to talk. He also sat
up on his own during the EEG. Go figure. He amazes us all the time.
He truly is an inspiration and the most
incredible son a mother could have. I am truly blessed to have him as
my son and I thank God that he has allowed him to stay with us. I just
hope I can be half the mother to him, as the incredible son he has
been to me.
Tomorrow we will go home, but we will see the
neurologist at this hospital first. Hopefully, Jayden will continue to
progress and move forward and these episodes pass. I have so much
faith in him and although it is very easy to fall apart, Jayden needs
us to be strong and fight along with him. That is what Andy and I
intend to do, always.
Love & blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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August 21, 20044
Howdy yall,
It was a tough day, but we are happy & thankful
to have these days. Jayden started his new anti-seizure meds yesterday,
and they upped the one he was on. So he was out of it today, very doped
up with very little muscle control. Jayden also suffered from hiccups on
and off all day today, we will try and find out what is causing that? It
was nice just to be home for the day though. Jayden still had some of
the seizures today but they are less, and hopefully will soon diminish.
This too shall pass. I have said that many times for different bumps in
the road and we always get through them. Jenny & I always stand strong
in our faith and know in our hearts Jayden will just fine. And with
Jay's strength and determination that he has every day he will be just
fine. As long as it takes we continue this journey with our heads held
up high, our hearts full of love, and our faith always strong. Jenny,
Jayden and I will be victorious! And of course your continued prayer &
support plays a huge part in all this. Thank you! Good night & God
bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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August 22, 2004
The road to recovery gets bumpier and bumpier. We
saw the neurologist today and he says that everything we have described
about Jayden and from what he saw, himself, is typical myoclonic seizures.
But, his EEG show focal seizures, which are different. So, since the
clonazepam hasn't stopped the seizures and has made Jayden extremely groggy
and really out of it, they have stopped it. Jayden was definitely not
himself today. He looked so tired, with no strength. Now, they need a more
thorough reading of the EEG and possibly a 24 hour EEG and video to record
Jayden. It would probably be an overnight stay at a local hospital here.
Tomorrow we will stop at nothing to get answers. No more trying of different
meds until an accurate assessment has been made. Once they know exactly what
seizures Jayden is having than a course of medicine can be administered.
There is a difference between myoclonic and focal in terms of medicine.
It's killing us to see Jayden go through even more.
This medicine they stopped today has not helped Jayden at all.
As we are tested some more, I can't help but wonder
why. We just want Jayden to get well and live the wonderful life he
deserves. This experience is taking years off our lives. But it's worth
it once we see Jayden healthy, happy and very much enjoying life.
Please pray for him and for the doctors to have the
knowledge to resolve this. Andy and I are really struggling to keep our
chins up these days.
Happy Birthday, Joe! We love you. Jayden loves his
god-daddy / uncle very much! I hope your day was great.
Love & blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
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August 23, 2004
Happy Birthday to me!
Although this is not the way I would have liked to
spend my 35th birthday, I cannot complain or ask for anymore. When I made my
wish today I realized that I am very fortunate, I have an amazing family,
the most supportive friends, a beautiful home, a great job with co-workers
that are like family, a wife that is beautiful, strong, funny, loving and a
great friend, and most of all a son that has accomplished so much in his
life so far, a son that makes me so proud of him everyday, a son that has
touched so many lives, a son that is the most incredible person I have ever
know, a son that continues to smile throughout this journey, a son that is
my hero! What more could I ask for in a birthday wish? Jayden started new
anti seizure meds today, they are sure now his seizures are general and not
myoclonic. So he will be treated with depakote and his phenobarb is back
down to his regular level. He has perked up tonight, after sleeping most of
the day and being very dopey. It will take some time to get it all
straightened out, but Jenny & I will take as long as it takes to get
everything right. We will not be going home September 1st, it will be
postponed until they get everything straight. It was nice to see family and
friends today. Thanks for my cake Deb, it was great! Thanks to all of you
for your continued prayer & support. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
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Jayden,
August 24, 2004 Jayden was much more alert today. Thank God, the new medicine isn't drugging him up. He was feeling better today and so were we. He had his therapies today and he seems to be back on track. He's amazing. Although he is still getting those episodes, the doctor has told us to give it a week to work through his system. He needs to build up his levels first. The hospital had a carnival today and Jayden really enjoyed people watching and hearing the music. We had a really good time with him. I want to thank some special friends that we met when we were at St. Joe's, Bill and Michelle. Thank you for the awesome basket of goodies you sent for Jayden. We can't wait until Jayden is playing with Nicholas. All our love always to you and your family. I also wanted to wish Andy a happy anniversary. We have 2 anniversaries, but this one is the most special one of all. Andy is an incredible person with a heart of gold. I am truly blessed to be married to a wonderful man, a devoted father, and my best friend. I am grateful for everyday I spend with him. Thanks as always for the continued prayers. Please add my brother, Joe, to your list of prayers. He had surgery today and it went very well, but he is in a lot of pain. I wish I was able to be there for him. He knows I'm there in spirit and his in heart. Love & blessings, Andy, Jenny, and Jayden Jayden, August 25, 2004
Jayden,
August 26, 2004
Good evening to all,
Its Sunday night and we are back at the hospital
after a very nice day at home. It seems there was a stomach virus going
around here so that may be why Jayden got sick yesterday. But he was in very
good spirits and enjoyed being home again. Jay really lights up when he is
in his room, he looks all over the place and mumbles little things. You can
tell its making him think very hard, and he is so focused. There is allot
going on in his head, he is putting all the pieces of the puzzle together,
and doing a super job at it. We once again look forward to getting back to
therapies tomorrow and watching Jayden do his magic. Good night and God
bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
Jayden, August 30, 2004
We had a good day. We had our patient care meeting
today. Jayden has met most of his therapy goals, mainly physical. We have
been given a discharge date of September 8th, next Wednesday. We'll be
coming here as outpatient and it seems we may be able to keep most of the
same therapists. We're really happy about that. They're wonderful.
Although the seizures, haven't totally diminished,
blood was drawn today to check his levels for the depakote. It may need to
be increased or just left the same.
Jayden has been extremely vocal and happy. He looks
great. We hope to take him home this weekend for the night as our trial run.
It would be the perfect birthday gift for me. Andy had father's day and
hopefully Jayden will give me the best present by being home for the whole
day and night.
Have a great night!
Love & blessings,
Andy, Jenny, and Jayden
Jayden, August 31, 2004
Howdy yall,
The roller coaster continues. Jayden had a good day
yesterday only to begin vomiting late last night, and then again this
morning. And just when Jenny & I were about loose our minds (again) Jay
perked up and had another great day. Today all Jay wanted to do was sit up
on his own from the laying down position. He was trying yesterday and was
doing it with little assistance, but today that's all he wanted to do, sit
up and lay back down and sit up again. He is getting some strong ab muscles.
After being very quiet and out of it this morning Jayden became very focused
on things and exploring everything within his reach, touching and moving,
and feeling. And once again he very, very vocal with every possible sound
coming out of his mouth. He wants to talk so bad. They did an EEG today to
check his brain waves today we will get the results tomorrow. But today we
got the results from yesterdays blood tests, his depakote levels '(new
seizure med) is 49, it should be between 50 & 100 so we will find out if
they will increase or give it some more time to level up.. Jayden sure keeps
us on our toes. Everyday is an adventure. But Jenny, Jayden & I take on
every obstacle that comes our way. We knew this journey would be bumpy, but
we can't wait until the road becomes a little smoother. We once again thank
all of you for helping us through this. We thank you for your continued
prayer & support. Good night & God bless. Love Andy, Jenny & Jayden
Please pray for all those in need of prayer.
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